Sunday, January 27, 2008

TEA ROSE



I look around/ the wind blows by/ the tea rose fades/ why can't I/ The tear it froze/ half down my face/ my life to all/ just sad disgrace/ They hang their heads/ turn in disgust/ "Tea Rose," they say/ "your life is dust"/ I look around/ the wind blows by/ "Tea Rose", they say/ "will never fly"/ But sweet rain falls/ brings back the smell/ an edible fragrance/ I know too well/ I pick myself up/ I stumble but stand/ I smile at the world/ on its demand/ I am jaded but not down/ I have in me another round/ They look/ they scorn/ they see my fight/ they do not see that I'm alive at night/ my passion rises/ when darkness falls/ my dreams say fight/ you deserve it all/ I try, I try to believe I am beautiful/ I will be a victor/ not a casualty/ And what people will say when I die/ that Tea Rose she was bound to fly.
J.L. (C)

Wednesday, January 23, 2008

Poetry Corner, Lu's first poem

THE KINGDOM OF THE FAIRIES

The Winter's cast,
and the Spring has passed.
The fairies come, fairies go,
and this fairy has gone.
It snows and snows,
the fairy needs to get home.

By: Lucy Lennon (c) 2008

Friday, January 18, 2008

A Little Change





I just sorta felt like I needed a little bit of change in my life so instead of getting my lip pierced or something:) I decided to change my hair. It's actually darker than I like but it'll fade. Also, it's more red in "real" life. Still, it's nice to embrace my dark side. -That was spoken in a wavy voice with spooky music in the background- I don't know why but the black shirt kept bunching weird around my tummy. I realize this is ridiculous to point out but I kept thinking how unnatural it looked. And of course, I always have to say what I'm thinking. My eyes in that second picture are showing the where and tear of my week....what a week! But we survived and that counts for a lot.

Tuesday, January 15, 2008

Just a quick little prayer post

Barbara's sister Agnes came for a visit with her son Matt a week and a half ago. They decided to ship Pop back to New York and place him in a nursing home. First off, he cannot make the trip safely, I honestly believe this. Second, he WILL die in a nursing home, he almost has twice. So, Danny and I had Pop sign over the power of attorney to us today (the 17th, I couldn't post this until we had him sign). Danny also asked Pop if he wants to come live with us and he looked him right in the eyes and said, yes. We are currently preparing our house and third bedroom for him. I am on crazy anxiety freak out mode right now, in part because I am so sad and angry at the way Pop has been treated by our family. We're asking for and could really use all the prayers everyone has to offer up. Thank you. Me

Wednesday, January 9, 2008

Cyber Vacation

Just wanted to let everyone know I'm going to be off the computer for a week or two. I feel I need a vacation from it. I'm on it far too much and I feel I need to be in the real world solely for a while to clear my brain, other then for writing. I'll post when I'm back. Many smooches!

Tuesday, January 8, 2008

Poetry Corner- I Fear- 1995/96


When the night is over/ there's room for no more tears/ I put on a happy smile/ to cater to people's cheers/ When I try to explain to them, the way things really are/ people laugh and say that could never leave a scar/ I try not to let it hurt, but how could it not/ I'm supposed to look up to her and be thankful for all I've got/ I'm supposed to be perfect/ a sweet child she is, they say/ when they say God will help/ I can only look away/ a merciful God he's supposed to be/ so why does his mercy stop at me/ What do I have to do to make people understand/ I'm lost and sad and so long for someone to hold my hand/ Just one friend to say to me/ I'm sorry for your pain/ One who will never say, it's your fault/ who will not place the blame/ There's nothing I can do for her/ I feel helpless when she's down/ Mom, I say, cheer up/ I can't stand to see you frown/ But I can't be her savior and I don't know what to do/ I miss the way things use to be/ I long for something new/ Will there ever be hope for my once friend/ I don't want to see her sad and lonely to the end/ Still I can't stay here and be hurt by all she says to me/ There's got to be an end to this pain/ something to set me free. J.L. (c)

Friday, January 4, 2008

THINGS I'VE LEARNED

I've noticed in the past 10 years that I have not only been more open to learning but I learn better. It's as if my brain kicked in around age 21 and it wasn't half bad! I'm so amazed now at all the things I take with me at the end of each year that I didn't have the year before. And most of all, I understand God more and I hear him more clearly. There are many things I like about myself now that I disliked before. There are some very nice parts of me. There are also some things that I pray will be better in the years to come. I am a work in progress.

I've learned that if one feeds the needs of everyone else all the time, their own will be malnourished. Now putting this lesson into action is something entirely different.

I've learned that sometimes one must lovingly walk away from a relationship that is toxic. Even if the person is family.

I've learned that a person cannot be forced to do something, even if it's best for them. And that people often ask for advice that they seldom take.

I've learned that our parents are not just human but flawed and because of that, they are sometimes wrong. And often, children are wiser than their parents.

I've learned that everyone has an opinion and they often contradict each other. That's why it's so important to know oneself and make choices based on God's plans. He knows the future so his opinion is the best bet!

I've learned that a little person can offer more love than a million big people because big people over complicate the meaning of a hug.

Mostly, I've learned that when we have a family, a spouse and a child(ren), they should be the top priority, under God. It is so important though, for each individual to pursue dreams and a life of their own because one day, every baby will grow up and their family will have to come first. It is so very wrong of parents to place all of their hopes and expectations on a life that isn't their own.

Raise up your children with morality and love. Teach them that anger only makes them sick. Live the motto, speak up or let go. This means, be honest with someone you're having trouble with or let the issue go. Grudges and unresolved issues are like untreated cancer. They grow and spread until every healthy part of you is diseased.

Don't let someone walk all over someone you care about. And humble in no way spells makes the word, DOORMAT. Don't interrupt, you might miss something important. Listen to old people's stories. They are awesome and you will be sad if you miss the opportunity.

There's so much more but I'll stop for now. People are complex, there are many layers to them so don't get stuck on one you don't particularly like. Most of the time, it's what's underneath the layers that is the most beautiful and juicy!

Tuesday, January 1, 2008

Merry New Year!!!



Merry 2008 everyone! I pray you all find hope, healing and happiness in the new year. May you each be blessed beyond what you can fathom.